I Miss You, I Want You Back Poem by Deepak Rai

You Leaving me is what I feared,
All the light and happiness you gave me disappeared,
People tell me to forget it and move on,
But whenever I see you I say to myself is that what you really want,
Every time I see you alone it kills me inside,
Not being able to give you the love is what I can't hide,
I pray every night just hoping you come back,
Improving on myself everyday in the things that I lack,
I tried to keep busy to keep my mind off of those things,
But it hits me every time when I realize I wont be the one giving you the ring,
Now everything I say, do, wear is like you always disagree,
Got me wondering if you actually like all that when you were with me,
Its strange and hard to swallow that your over it already,
We both promised to be together forever,
But I guess we actually weren't ready,
You told me to delete every photo we had and make us history,
But how can I miss you without any memories,
Said we didn't have a future, always leaving me on read,
Always contradicting on what you said,
After that one day everything got deeper,
The day we began I said 'she a keeper',
I just wanted to make you happy and never sad,
Considering and understanding your past,
But for the reason we parted it makes me mad,
I still dream of us being together and living happily ever after like bollywood movies,
So then you can tell everyone I'm your one and only,
You got me singing bollywood songs every time I'm alone,
Dreaming of us both sitting on our thrones,
As every second of my life I grieve for you to be back in my arms,
Showing the world that no one can do no harm,
I still call you My Queen, My Miss Independent, My Katrina, My fighter,
With you babe, it felt like my days were brighter,
People might think I'm dramatic because we lasted 3 weeks,
But they don't know that it was much deeper than that,
They didn't see how the tears were falling off your cheeks,
I'm still your Panda and your still My Golden Retriever,
Every time we kissed, I believed that you are mine forever,
I still don't believe when you say I'm good or fine,
I just want to know what's going on in your mind,
Our conversations on Facebook used be as smooth as a melody,
Now we both acting like we were never meant to be,
The way you blush, every time I look into your eyes,
You becoming apart of my life was the best surprise,
I don't want to end this because I'm not done expressin'
With all my feelings and emotions, I feel like I'm in depression,
I love you, I miss you, I want you back,
When you and I were together, we were ahead of the pack,
I wish you were here helping me get through this pain,
Because I can't stop thinking about you in this rain,
I'm not giving up, I still have hope and faith in our relationship,
My heart and mind won't let go,
I'm always here for you just to let you know,
Even though it's done and your gone forever,
You're going to be My Queen that I will always remember..
11.24.16 <3