I Prefer Us Poem by Sam Speirs

Sometimes I’d rather disappear
Cease to be and to escape here
Leave pain and past to cross
From my heart and then be lost
As rivers pour out to the sea
So to let it pour away from me
To drown the image within my head
Rid me of your memory instead

Sometimes I’d rather scream aloud
Than hide my voice within the crowds
To scrawl on walls and be heard by all
Not shut my mouth for fear of fall
Ducking deftly past the question
Falling fast despite my intention
But still I’m conquered by the crowd
And cursed to crawl beneath their shroud

Sometimes I’d rather cry to myself
Actually its worse than I can help
Since you left that is in my eyes
The knife that slipped into my side
And this cut which won’t stop bleeding
Betrays a heart that continues beating
Though I may feel ripped at the seams
You never hurt my secret dreams

Sometimes I’d rather do all that
But really it isn’t all so bad
The things I would like if its up to me
Are to be with you, and to be free
Free from the chains of monetary gains
To live a life that inspires change
Without you this is a futile gesture
So wouldn’t you rather, we live it together