~i Regret Change~ Poem by E Nigma

I'm constantly forced to look at my reflection
Constantly forced to look at the world I've created
That I exist in, where I use others to shape the reality
Of my existence Into a life not confined by definition,
But defined by the very intricacies of human development

A life entwined with the ever changing
Moments of the winds direction
Not nearly as explainable as the errors of past
Living in the present while constantly dreaming
Of the future but always waking up before it begins

Now because I have grown to understand
It's in this understanding I've realized
That my head feels no relief

Because this crown I wear is heavier then my heart can bear
Because this crown I wear was once shared with the one
Who I forced to abandon this kingdom
It is only I who can understand
How my hate equals my love