Gary Rounds (April 12,1984 / Suva)

the unfortunate day, i remember
the sharp carving knife, i remember
over the veins of my wrist, i remember
i try to slit but i can't, i remember

i close my eyes, i remember
memories pleasant, memories regretted, i remember
pandemonium in my mind, HAVOC! ! ! i remember
i begin to scream AHHH! ! ! AHHH! ! ! i remember

i cannot forget
...the tears
......the mucus
.........the saliva
...........................dripping
...........................dropping
.......... .................drooling

i jerk my head from side to side, i remember
death has his hands on my back
transfering his wiles into me, i remember
I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANY MORE! ! ! i remember

diazepam, zoloft in my hand, i remember
bottoms up, down they go, i remember
i lay on my bed, i close my eyes, i remember
praying they never ever open, i remember

three days pass, i remember
i awake, i remember
hands over my face, i beging to cry.........

i'll never forge