I Said I Would Do Anything For Him, Give Anything For Him. But Does Anything Include You? Poem by Alyssa Lippi

Im afraid.
Im alone.
But yet the reason i feel this way.
Is because im not.
Its not only me.
Either way I will have somebody with me.
If only I could choose both.
I could try.
I will try.
But it would never work.
It will never work.
This situation I created without him.
I want to work through with him.
Its not my choice to make.
Anymore.
I already made it.
Not in the best of circumstances.
Not in the best mind set.
Not on purpose.
I could say I would take it back.
But I would never call you a mistake.
I already love you.
Whoever you are.
But I know him.
I love him.
I walked into this not knowing this could ever be a possibility.
Will I walk out of it with a smile on my face?
I can't lose him.
But can I give you up?
I said I would do anything for him, give anything for him.
But does anything include you?