I Thought, I Found, Im Broken Poem by Audrey Marie Kay

I thought i had it figured out
I thought i had it out of my head
I thought i could forget
I thought it didn't matter anymore
I thought i was cured
I thought i was somewhat okay
I thought too hard and i found the truth
I found that memories don't go away
I found that things cant be canceled out of mind
I found out that I'm still tormented by the past
I found my helpless self laying on the floor
I found the tears that fell down my cheek
I found them as they dripped onto my chest
I found them slide and laying still on my broken body
Broken by so many memories of my old life
Broken by the times i was torn by his touch
Broken by one simple word on the TV
Broken on the floor, opened up again
Opened up by that one word
'they found her dead this morning.. she has been raped'
Its a stupid Law and Order rerun
and it Broke me down to this state