I Will Stay Here, In The Hell Of My Mistakes Poem by Audrey Marie Kay

I dont want to climb up anymore
the ladder wont handle it
Im ready to fall back to the floor
im tired finding hope in things
and getting hurt again and again
im ready to feel the rushing stings
i want to go far into hell
so i wont get my hopes up
i am under a false spell
speaking to you again
i am lost and becoming weak
i dont want to climb up anymore
the ladder im on is failing
falling out from under me
and all the things i thought i knew
are coming back to haunt
you are taunting me with memories
i want to go so far into hell
that i lose the ladder
and cant take anymore steps
if my ladder breaks i cant climb higher
so i wont fall over and over again
im tired of getting my hopes up
im tired of trying to get up after i break
ill just stay here
in this hell of my mistakes