I Wish.. Poem by Maria Bledsoe

II wish i was good enough, i wish i was smart enough,
I wish i was pretty

I wish i had a reason for BEING HERE, a purpose, a meaning

i wish the things i said stuck in people's minds and made them smile, like some does me

i wish suicide didn’t seem like the only option to get away, BUT ITS OVER POWERING ME

i wish i was smart enough to make the right choices and get into the school i want, today.

But i can wish all day the things wont change
My life will be a burden to everyone and everything

I know this must've done nothing to your feelings and thoughts
but i wish you could see …

SEE what i think inside
feel what i feel

sadly my thoughts have taken over me,
people's decisions and hurting words have killed

like the sad, sad deer with a shot to the eye took her down
SCREAMING “die die die”

Its screaming in my ear but no one seems to hear but me

im crying out now and forever for never have i done so painfully
maybe that’s the only thing that can save me

...is you