I Wish.., I Just Wish Poem by Anton Asukile

I wish I'd have yelled 'stooop' and rebuke Sariel.
But my voice was too low to pass over the crowd.
I wish I'd have been feeding on your left side breast,
may be I's hide your soul from departing that moment.
I wish I'd have been talking, may be we would agree otherwise than letting you go!

I wish I would have seen you.
May be I would have a sketch of you, hanged in my living room.
I really wish I would have seen you,
but my eyes were too infant to behold.

Sometimes I wish it would have not be true!
But that sound of the sand on the coffin,
that awoke me to stare.
And the declaration of that woman I don't even know,
who was caring me on her arms.
As she found out I was staring the pit,
and telling me you were buried.
I would have never believed the story,
just as that of my dad.

I wish I would have heard your voice.
May be I'd have sampled it in my song.
I wish it would have been a day,
that you'd have heard me saying 'I love you Mom'
as others do.

I wish I do not say these words to you.
may be it could shorten our time apart.

But since there is no other word to fit,
I just ought to say it,
'Rest in Peace Mom,
I love you so much'.