I Wouldnt Poem by faith toney

They think they know all to well
they think they get everything
their always telling me you wont Ang
and I think hard would I?
do they know me better than myself
they tell me im too good
and that I would never
I wouldn’t hurt myself
I wouldn’t cut myself
I wouldn’t go back to him
I wont stop eating
I wont stop caring
I wouldn’t give up
I wouldn’t do anything to hurt myself
but I already have
oh yea they know me so well
cause there not there
its me myself and I
alone when im down and crying
when im in a cold room staring at a screen
rereading emails, staring at the memories far to gone
they cant hear the screaming and yelling in my mind
when I try to tell them
they reply your not like that Ang
cause apparently im too good for that behavior
so I repeat to myself
I wont take those pills
I wont wear all black
I wouldn’t go to him and say ******
I wont go out in this world and let it control me
I wont punch that face in
I wouldn’t hurt that small part of me saying yes
cause im holding it all in
where they don’t see
cause they wont believe me when I say
I very close to saying IM DONE
to hell with this life
but I still don’t
I guess their right
cause I still haven’t yet