If Only.................................... Poem by Hadyn Rodriguez

The only thing that stops my ache is cutting myself if only you stopped me. If the pain goes on I wont make it.My future is one big past if only you knew that. The only thing to hold on to is pain and blood. If only you saw my soul blood would be flowing out of my eyes and mouth.These are the only memories i know and cherish.If only you could see that besides hurting and killing me slowly each day.This is the only life i will live till i die. If only you saw that i can't be born again and saw my heart. I'm not alive and can't survive because of you. If only you saw me for me. The pain you cause me eats me up inside that I scream. If only you saw that but you never will.The cigarette burns on my veins hurts so bad i feel like I'm burning.If only you saw that but no not you just waiting till the day i break then I won't ruin your life anymore like you said i have been doing.