If Only I Could..(Part 1) A Victim's Confusion Poem by poeticgirl 100993

if only i could explain why I'm doing these things to you
if only i could tell that you're the reason why I'm blue
i am sorry if i have a different point of view
everything won't work out fine if i allow you to continue.

if only i could ask you to look me in the eyes
for you to realize that those uttered words are just lies
if only i could convince you for a one last try
there's no reason for us to easily bid our goodbyes.

if only i could tell you all the surprising factuality
that we have the same feelings and that's a reality
but there SHE comes and put a twist in our story
and here you are, always misinterpreting my curiosity.

if only i could interrogate if you still feel the same
but if you answered, 'no', should i throw to myself all the blame?
there's nothing i want to scream and call, but only your name
cause this feelings of mine get stronger as balmy as flame.

if only i could trust those people around me
there's no reason for you to think that I'm crazy
if only i could ask you to help me with this problem directly
then, there's no reason for me to respond so disbelievingly.

now at this time, you really have to choose
and it doesn't matter if i fail and lose
if only i could whisper to you all the clues
that it's me, i want you to predestine..if only i could.