Insane Poem by Matthew Bennion

Through the absence of my mind I have grown fond of not letting my thoughts get to me
I go through days wishing I could just end it all
I go through weeks wishing I could just run from it all
I go through these phases wondering what’s next
I go through the world in terror
I have anxiety about the future
I fall into a deep depression about the past
I know I shouldn’t live in the past nor the future
But the present isn’t what I want
I’ve made myself fall apart and I'm still scared to pick up the pieces
My heart belongs to one person but it doesn’t seem like she loves me
I’ve tried moving on but have failed many a time
She is what keeps me going
She is what keeps me sane
It’s funny to think that I am insane
But tis be true
I am insane
Insane to the point with her that I will do anything
She is my world
My life
My everything
I love her
I hate her
She drives me crazy
The way she is
The way she loves
Her skin so soft
Her lips
Her hair
No matter what I do
No matter what I say it won’t do her just
She is amazing
She is my love
But she doesn’t see it
I just want to hold her
It’s funny how one person can change you from being sane to insane?

©Ben Matthews