Insecurity Poem by Rebecca Pepper

Sometimes I sit here and think
That all this will disappear if I so much as blink
Maybe I'm paranoid; you know I think this is something we should avoid
But I know that neither of will be able to sleep annoyed

You let me slip into a sense of security
Let me believe this sense of insecurity will fade with maturity
But I still fear after all these years that you hold most power
And I'm just an accessory, a fragile little flower

So maybe yes, I do these little things to test you
Pushing my boundaries to discover something new
And I know you knew about my challenging past
Just another reason for me to believe you've found better at last

I know they tell me I shouldn't let my shadow haunt me
But I fear that if I let my shadow go I'll be vulnerable for them to see
And I won't let my memories repeat even if it leaves me alone
I won't take another's future just so I can call you my home