Insecurity And Loneliness Poem by Alyssa Howell

Feeling the numbest in my heart from the loneliness of the pain
I’ve felt this for so long, it’s eating at me
The insecurity of thinking what I’ve done wrong in my relationship
Instead of what I’m doing right

My heart gets crushed when people I trust say something negative about me, even in a jokingly way
I want to change, but it seems so hard
What I’m going through its hard just to breathe and stand
But I do it anyway because I know somewhere out there I’ll do something I can be proud of

Or is it all a lie? Just something to keep me alive?
Insecurity and loneliness
Turning me into a shell of numbness
Nobody knows what my thoughts are or what I imagine

What will I become?
From what I can see it’s something cold-blooded
The tingles of my arms and legs have already started
How can I stop it?

More and more insecurities
The loneliness from my heart of pain and secrets
I close my eyes hoping my breathing would come to a stop
Just to feel it beat in slow motion

To turn into a cold-blooded thing
Pushing away everything living thing
Insecurity and
loneliness