Inside My Mind I Bare A Cross Poem by Edgard Canales

Missing you both so much I can't express it,
head down and jot it down on paper
every time I'm stressing.
I can't sleep at night just turn and toss
cause inside my mind I bare a cross
thinking of my daughters
and all the time we've lost.
Family and friend either dead or gone
so far away feels like I'm never going home.
Close my eyes
wish my reality wasn't real
but down my cheeks and on my lips
the taste of bitter tears.
Tired of being on my own
many people love me
but deep inside I always feel alone.
Chin up, chest out gotta suck it up
on my knees I pray for a blessing to change my f.cking luck.
Hate keeping secretes from you.
So to Nat & Miya here's the truth
before writing was my passion
before I had dreams of blowing up the booth.
Had it hard as a kid
broken home
but exceeded in everything I did.
Mama taught me right from wrong
but I chose to sing a different song.
Made mistake and bad decisions that led me up to jail
hoping for a visit or even a little piece of mail.
Not proud for my actions at the time,
so I hit the books hard to improve my intellect and rhymes.
Did my time, now a changed man ready to hit the streets
Couldn't wait for that moment they would tell me that I'm free,
but I was wrong
deportation was karma's
revenge for everything I've done.
Over seas to a whole new world
now every day
I have to bare this cross of missing both my little girls....


The mind is it's own place.