Istill Dont Understand Poem by Sammje Peltier

it been almost five years,
that we have been apart
this fact breaks my heart
in the darkness at night
where i have no hand to hold
its been such a bitter cold world
without you here to hold
i pray to the gods that you know
just how alone ive been since they stole my sunlight
but i know in my heart things will change,
its just so damn hard
when i need you now, this pain is driving me crazy

but just know its the hope of seeing you one day
that keeps me going, that keeps me fighting
in this cold cruel world,
because your are the only thing i have ever wanted
your the only thing good left in this terrible life
when i think of our days together,
icould nevertell you enough just howmuch i adore you
and how i loveyou hips next to my side
how i know my sleep would never come
because when i am by your side
idont need anything else in this world,
because you are the missing piece inside of me
the days ive searched for you,
id never imagen us being apart,
but here we are almost two thounds miles apart
im still wondering, how they ever manged to keep us apart,

you were that fire inside of me
and it was like they justpoured a bucketof water
out i went, blinded bymy pain and hate
i could notsee anything
the onlything that mattered was you
and they just stole the light inside
but im still alive, empty inside

i still dont understand how i
made it, the foster home sure didnt do my heart any good
it killed me everytime i saw a pair of hazel eyes,
because it was your eyes i saw everytime,
tears sprung to my eyes
the memory of you breaks me inside
know i cant be the one who cares for you
my dear lady, icant tell you how sorry i am
for being away for being away for so long
and i know you dad aint really there,
but im trying to make sure you dont miss out
having the life i had onced dreamed of
but i know your pretty smile hides that pain
that pain i had created, it my dying wish to fix that
and make you happy,

because dont you knoow it was you,
all thoses night i couldnt sleep
it was you who kept me going
knowing you were there for me
it was you who held my hand when things got rough
it was your eyes i had woken up to almost a thounds times
green outling with the blue as a soft center
i could tell you almost anything about her
she make me feel like i can make every dark night a brighter day
she made me believe in my darkness moments that there was gonna be a different future, that things would change, because they had to

if i owed you anything, it was a better future for everynight you spent with me, everytime i think about my past, i think about my responsibilities then and now and the one responsibility i had kept, after being taken from you, is to always stay loyal and devoted to you