It Was Better That Way Poem by nikki hays

Its true i offered up his childrens lives
Its true i killed them in unknowing sacrifice
I gave what he sent me away turned a blind eye
I know now it was better that way

I tore from my womb what in truth should of stayed
the fire i touched and with it i played
Poor and pathetic i seemed at the time
I know now it was better that way

He cries out degrading and hurtful remarks
I would have been sad then but that was the past
Now i have learned to let his pathetic moves slide
I know now its was better that way

OH in his dreams he taught all i could know
In his dreams i went as far as i could go
But now i have learned so much more underlies
I know now it was better that way

He thinks he knows what my heart really hides
He thinks he can sense what i hold deep inside
But he did teach me well all these things to mask
I know now it was better that way

A kiss on the forhead a little goodbye
I know he didnt feel it before i changed sides
He thinks he knows all of my secret dark side
I know now it was better that way

Granted i loved him yes he stole my heart
Granted i gave him my deepest parts
Granted his children i stole perhaps that was the start
But i know now it was better that way