Jesica's Splendid Grandeur Poem by Bill Darrah

Can’t seem to shake this feeling I have for this woman. Don’t honestly know what I am supposed to do with this feeling anyway even though it seems like my heart has been here before so many miserable years ago that I can’t even feel an ounce of misery from all those completely loveless, lonesome, wasted, apathetic years all because some incredibly remarkable woman inherently blessed my life by touching my heart with all the beautifully designed essence of the love she has always wanted to have to keep in her heart forevermore. How could I possibly fathom expressing such a significantly heartwarming kind of love when it feels like she is always warming my heart instead to show me how warm her heart already is in the absence of my affections for her presence of love, the world’s best kept secret? Oh how I deeply treasure this woman for the true gift of love she has always had in her heart way before we ever met, and how I feel so guilty of feeling this treasured love in spite of my inexperienced inability to express enough of my love for this woman’s much more advanced ability to love! How this incredibly amazing woman has never been married is a dreadful fate worse than death because she is so spectacularly worthy of such a wonderfully honorable love I wish so much she could passionately embrace one day for the rest of her inspiring life! It feels so amazing how this woman has turned my heart inside out for the first time ever so she could grant me the resilient, awestruck, privileged power to express so many affections silenced from so many years of loneliness and out of so much fear no woman would ever want to hear how she made me feel so loved I never wanted to stop expressing my feelings for her. Because this woman is the first person to completely obliterate all my fear of women, she has taught me so many valuable lessons about love I never dreamed my heart would EVER have the right to learn to feel such beauty of mixed emotions about how incredibly apathetic I used to be for years never meeting a woman I could ever feel confident sharing any of my affections or love with let alone a potential marriage proposal. I’ve seen a lot of women smiling, but there is such a uniquely special magic in the way this woman loves to smile that truly captivates my heart! It’s like looking at pure, indescribable joy. Impeccable embellishing love adorns her life through her smile that abundantly prevails so triumphantly over everything in her life! Love is this woman’s most naturally appealing, talented dowry man could only incessantly hope to passionately adore enough of to offer his emotionally limited source of love first resonated vividly and directly through this woman’s essence of sweet harboring loveliness uniquely privy to her heart. I am so grateful our lives crossed so I could feel like a normal guy full of enormously heartfelt emotions so graciously given to me by this woman I never rightfully deserved so much of this longing to feel towards such a remarkably captivating woman! I continue to fervently weep for all the ways I have drastically underappreciated all of this woman’s vast experienced innate abilities of love’s true beauty of natural creation I have only begun to dream of experiencing the uninhibited, raw expression of a woman’s heart allowing her freely expressed emotions to passionately create my needful desire to love her with the growing adoration of her amazing ability to perceive love to cease all my lamentations for all the times I injured this woman’s emotions so I could finally sense the rudimentary beginnings of a potentially empowering love of my life in all of Jesica’s splendid grandeur!