Learning To Love Poem by wild fire

'Stop it.
Just stop everything.'
After that I run full fledged
out the front door.

The endless field in front of me
is the only destination I know.
The scarecrow looks at me with smiling eyes
as I catch my breath.

I look back and you're not far behind,
I cant see you but I hear you call my name.
I cant let you live your life stuck with me.
I look at the scarecrow then run.

'Come back please! '
I hear you beg and it breaks my heart
that I have hurt you but
i need to keep running.

I run into the old barn
listening to the emptiness.
Its so deafening to sit here
I see you out of breath lean against the barn

What is this?
You're crying as am I
It hurts to see you upset
i cant let you be hurt by me anymore

I'm not fit for anyone to love
I hate myself
and adore you
do you know this?

I sneak out from behind the hay
and your eyes light up again
but I dare not let you hug me
your eyes soften to confusion

'I'm not fit to be loved.'
I say, looking at my dirty bare feet.
You smile and reply 'neither am I'
i look up from my feet

you hold open you arms
and I look at your gorgeous face
two unloveable people together
and you tap my nose with your index finger

in your arms I cuddle against your body
and smile you promise to never let go of me
and we both look toward the scarecrow
in the field who's smiling

You take my hand
and we start toward the house
we walk into the sunset
to start learning how to love.