Let You Poem by Amanda Saveley

Like a multi-colored rubber band ball on fire,
I'm a jumbled hot mess right now.
Some days I think to myself,
'It's a wonder you can stand.'
The elephant man reincarnate in a blender
Can’t compare to me on a bad day.

Am I really such a bad person?
Do I really think these awful things?
I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t
Know where I’m headed
I don’t know where I’m going
But when I get there,
I just might let you

See? What I do to myself
Yes, I know I look like hell.
My pants are holier than my soul
And my hair could probably use a brush
But my heart’s been run over with a fine-tooth comb
There’s nothing left to remove.

Am I really such a bad person?
Do I really think these awful things?
I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t
Know where I’m headed
I don’t know where I’m going
But when I get there,
I just might let you

Go to the farthest reach of my imagination
And you’ll find things I try to forget
And you’ll find things I wish I regret
For the longest time I didn’t know where my mind was
I just thought it was the ambition talking
But it was just me talking to myself.

Am I really such a bad person?
Do I really think these awful things?
I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t
Know where I’m headed
I don’t know where I’m going
But when I get there,
I just might let you see
I just might let you go
I just might let you know.

I just might let you.