Life Lesson Poem by If I say Im lost, Would you come find me

</>Everything is spinning,
faster and faster,
Im going to be sick,
if this doesn't stop.
Make this stop,
make the pain go away,
make the memories disappear.
Please,
i am begging you,
make it all go away.
Please,
help me,
save me,
rescue me...
Please?
As I watch everything slow down,
all i see is you walking away.
The though breaks my heart,
it burns,
it is almost unbearable.
As i watch you,
my vision becomes blurry,
my eyes sting.
I lay there crying,
I lay there in misery,
in disappear,
and complete confusion.
Why? ....
you of all people? ...
Why? ...
Why would you walk away from me,
and leave me with this pain,
this constant numming pain?
Why! !
Finally, after the pain becomes just enough to bare,
I stand.
I stand high and cant see you,
and don't want to see you face.
I don't want you to be there for me not anymore
and never again.
Don't come back,
now that you have walked away Ive learned something.
Something many never learn,
something many could never comprehend.
I learned to never depend on you,
never to depend on anyone,
not you..
not him...
not her...
no one.
Only to depend on myself,
because now i know,
I will always be there for me,
I would never walk away from myself,
never turn my back,
i will always be there,
till the very end.
I will never trust you again.
So, I thank you for the life lesson,
but please go like you did before,
but this time don't come back
ever..
Thank you