Light In The Night (For Amanda) Poem by Kynpham Sing Nongkynrih

Light In The Night (For Amanda)

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Do not ask me the whys and the wherefores;
poetry is anoetic; you might as well question the rooster
or the plums, why they put on spring blossoms.
But how and when poetry first came to me?
If you insist, let me flip through the folios of memory.

Poetry did not come beckoning me like the hills in my blood.
It did not come on the fragile wings of a ñiangkongwieng*
singing of autumn. It did not come from the sunny
streams, naked and splashing with childhood.
It did not come from the afternoon bonfires
and the sweet, burning faggot smoke sinking
to my bones and rising above woods warbling
with winter. Though all these are dearest to my heart,
it did not come from the deep deciduous gorges, animated
and soaring with migratory birds looking for ripening
fruits in sanctified groves. It did not fill the inhospitable
ravines of my soul with the fluffiness of land clouds.
Though I am a true son of the wettest place on Earth,
it did not come baptising like the wind-driven rain
and the impregnating fog.

It happened amidst the squalor of this town's wretched
tenements but not because life was harsh and ignoble
for a strange and ragged rustic, struggling to be
a day-time student, a night-time labourer. Not because
everything had seemed to mock me, from rich girls
giggling on the road to loud boys on bicycles
and young louts playing badminton. Bad times
might have ruled out a normal existence and driven me
up the branches of a pear tree to peer at the playful
world with timid longing, but poetry did not come
because bad times also made me supple as a cane stalk
and taught me the relief of stories and the pleasures
conjured with closed eyes.

Poetry did not come because of the joys and sorrows
of my life. Though later it soaked in everything
like ploughed earth and mirrored everything
like a mountain lake, when it came it had nothing
of leaders with lips of a murmuring brook and hearts
laced with venom like the arrows of war. It carried
nothing of the cold and hard indifference that drove
students to the streets and boys to the therapy
of the gun. It had nothing of the rottenness
that would sell our holy mountain for a car and a few
concubines. It had nothing of blood or riots; nothing
of public or private curfews; nothing of terror, of fake
or genuine encounters; nothing of life or death;
nothing good or bad; nothing beautiful or ugly.

Poetry came like an illness: a young woman, abandoned
and alone with a girl child had seemed to me,
in her loneliness, like a flambeau in the dark lanes
of those nights. Something stirred inside me.
I was racked by a sudden desolate yearning,
something fierce and restless, a gnawing, tormenting
desire to reach out, to touch—
and I scrawled my first few lines, and furtive,
like someone committing a crime, I slipped them
through the door of her two-room residence.

That was my poetry—nakedly, madly in love,
and desperately prayerful. But in its foolishness,
it did not even have a name and my beloved
looked in vain for the man who had called her,
my first poem, ‘Light in the Night'.

Well, as you can see, when I was young my poetry
started with an address to a divorcee, a woman
old enough to be my aunt. Now that I'm almost old,
should I turn to a girl, hopefully chaste, and young enough
to be my student? Maybe someone like you, sipping wine
and smoking a cigarette.

For you, I have gone down the ladder and crawled into
the coal pits of the psyche. But did I ever tell you that you
make me feel stupidly innocent and hopelessly inadequate?

* A kind of cicada.

Friday, July 10, 2015
Topic(s) of this poem: inspiration
COMMENTS OF THE POEM
Sahil Yadav 31 October 2020

Can I get a critical analysis for this poem

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Ankit 23 April 2022

If you have its critical analysis then please share it with me too

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Fabrizio Frosini 10 July 2015

''anoesis'' * in Ars Poetica [* = consciousness that is pure passive receptiveness without understanding or intellectual organization of the materials presented]. Thanks for reminding us such an interesting concept, Kynpham, even if Science can tell us ''why they put on spring blossoms'' :) A nicely penned poem. I've enjoyed it. Thank you so much for sharing Fabrizio

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Ruta Mohapatra 19 September 2021

I find your poem a little strange, a little enchanting! You have captured a range of human emotions. Thanks for sharing!

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Brijesh Brijesh 14 April 2023

Sir I need to summary light in the night for Amanda

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Amisha 06 May 2022

Can anyone please tell me

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Bharati Nayak 24 February 2022

An unique love poem with amazing expression.!

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Kush 25 October 2021

Please give me analysis of this poem

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Dr Dillip K Swain 19 September 2021

A wonderful poem! You have brilliantly encapsulated the fact and substance... beautiful. To myPoemlist

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