Livin A Lie My Poems Poem by christian guice

living a lie
I get a insane feeling,
it comes from deep inside i ask me self why did i even try?
I get all mad and angry,
wanting to go and hide but out in tha open.
My doctor calls it depression, i am feelin a aggression
my dad says it's just me but i said how could it be.
But the thoughts and feelings,
no one will ever be able to see.
Some say I'm crazy, lazy
some say I'm just weird have no peal.
It's like I'm a different person tryin to recalculation im vision,
and the old me just disappeared.
I get really edgy,
I want to commit suicide real bad.
Then I get a headache,
followed by feeling sad.
I wish I could get help, no one even try to care
I wish it would go away and find a new world some day maybe to santa fe.
Maybe if I keep praying real hard,
it will some day and take me away.


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