Lonely Abandonment Poem by RoseAnn V. Shawiak

Staring down the long, lonely halls of life, wanting only
to reach the end.

Full of the company of others, seeking only the solitude
of loneliness.

Being afraid of the necessities in life, trying to rid
oneself of all things - material and otherwise.

Abandoning all who love you, choosing to shun the friendship
of someone you've known for so long.

Forsaking this love to grow in self-pity, unaware that it
is so.

Taking nothing into consideration except selfish thoughts
and ideas.

Leaving a friend stranded - alone - with no idea of where
he is going from here.

Having once said, 'trust me', 'wait and see if you can trust
me', all along claiming to be a friend - and now as he runs
and hides from me, showing that he has never been.

Selfishly hiding behind closed doors - refusing to see
anyone, rejecting and abandoning, he once promised that he
never would.

Sitting here, dying inside, trying to decipher what this
friendship is now supposed to mean, tears fall deftly -
silently - where once a friend's love had been.

Turning away sadly, totally devastated inside, running
blindly away - knowing the sharp intense pain of abandonment
again - I walk away - thinking I've never really been his
true friend - it was only a game of pretend to him.

Life is not precious or dear - it is nothing. It can be
wiped away like the drop of a tear - or forgotten as words
are flung cruelly at someone who thought they were friends.