Lost Poem by Crazy Vampire

I lost part of my family once before
It hurt my heart and my soul
I may seem happy at times to everyone else
but deep inside something is eating myself
It is a feeling of no meaning, no hope and despair
It is something i've known, been informed of and aware

Life is hard and can be cruel
and it takes us all for it's play things it's fools
i've been it's fool more than twice
i shall not give it my life
i've heard of people giving into it's arms
if i do it, it might end my misery, but it will also cause harm,
to everyone who loves and cares for me
I'm not a bad person and this isn't who i want to be