Lost In Translation Poem by Maria Sudibyo

There you go again
You make a wrong movement
I want to bare the proof to you
But I have decided not to care anymore
I already give up to confront anything
I don't have a wish to open anything
I am always responsible
I do my duty, I follow the rule
But it doesn't mean my heart should also be there
I'm not your doll to play
You can not bend me to your will
I'm never keeping a grudge
But you must know that I'm very revengeful
Who says I can not be cruel?
Who says I can not be cold?
Do you hurt?
I do too
Are you mad?
I am more than that
It is funny that I should create some conditions
So I won't be fall to a bottomless abyss
It is ridiculous that I try to count your fault
Just to search the reason why I should not hate you
You only remember when you are being hurt
You are filled with your own assumption
That everyone in the world is against your happiness
And forget many times you disappointing me
I've learn the pain from the best
I've been fooled to the lowest
Yet it's so ironic
That I could still be hurt by you