Love's Moving On Poem by Jared Bradford

This is so hard to write
I haven't quite figured it out
Who I am, how to express
What I'm all about

If only I knew who I was
But isn't that so selfish
Should I care so much about me?
But I can barely help this

I use to know it all
That was back when I had love
Love in my family, my girl and friends
Then something happened to all of them

My family seemingly fell
But now who could I possibly tell
Cause my girl was gone as well
Then my whole life turned all to hell

I actually had to choose
Which Thanksgiving to go to
Funny, how could one family under one roof
Possibly be divided into two?

You vow before God
To endure life together
That only death will do you part
For worse or for better

That's a heavy load
It's why Love is so strong
So heavy, that's why I fell
When all my love was gone.

But who am I to complain?
Cause I don't think I'm to blame
The only thing that kept us a family
Is no more than a last name

So I just let that be
Even though it tore at me
I just wanted to see my girl
She was that shining light in my world.

I went back to my dream
Me and her, Her and I
I wanted to stay right here
My dream quickly turned to nightmares

It's as if my mind makes excuses
To keep her away from me
And my heart only bleeds
Cause it says we're meant to be

I spend so long debating in my mind
If you're really worth this time
The time I lost in my room
Lost in that therapy room
Yeah I know, therapy..
I seemingly get by easily
I get by barely

But maybe this is life without you
Writing all my poems about you
And all my the words and lines
Are all completely about truth

I lost my sense of self
Money can't and won't buy love
That's why I refuse the wealth
God sends it from above

I spent months picking up these pieces
It was like a giant puzzle..
Even harder when the love is gone
So I dropped those pieces,
And moved right on