Loving Hate Poem by Jayson C

For you, this is my lust
After I gave all away my trust
I was broken and crushed to dust,
My iron heart gave in to rust.

I knew, when I asked you out
It'll be a wild ride to hell
I should have followed my doubt
I should have climbed up when i fell

Your pride that's always at peak
The endless happiness that you seek
It's rainin' curses when you speak
you always pretend that you're weak

You'll rather be angry than say sorry
You won't stop 'til i say 'ok, you beat me'
You hate the feeling when you're guilty
You even hate it when I ask you if you love me.

For those reasons my desire grew
I was hanging on but my heart blew
My dream to crush your wicked heart is starting to grow too.
Brace yourself because this is my lust to kill you.

For the first week I'll follow you without complain
Endure all the cruelty and pain
And when you feel that you imprisoned me again,
That is when your misery will begin

Earn your trust then fool you,
Start a date then leave you,
Organize a party with the ones that hate you,
Serve the food you hate most then surprise you.

And just to be clear, this ain't revenge,
This is just my lust that's so intense.
A lust to see your tears flow like rivers,
To see you cry 'til you freaking shiver

That feeling of adrenaline,
The blood rush as my heart pump
That moment when you can't hold it in
It's so good I got a goose bump

But I guess this will all be just a dream
Cause as much as I want to hear you scream
You know I can't do that cause we are a team
Just leave me vent out all my steam

And I know even though I got million reasons to leave you,
Somehow I still find a reason to love you
And for that I'll still be with you
Because I know I'll soon love the way you hate me too