Messed It Up! ! Poem by Becky Ginn

I’ve messed it up
There is no going back
All the the things I longed for
Have been torn apart and can no longer fix it to the way it was before

Ever since I came to this world
My life has been full of disappointment and confusions
No happiness at all, just some sadness emotion that keeps locked inside
Of this broken heart, no one wants to know me and I no longer have pride.

I used to feel loved by everyone I knew
I used to feel happy around the people I knew
I used to be proud of the way I was before
And I used to feel glad about the things I wanted to do.

I didn’t used to care about the way I looked
I didn’t used to care about the way I walked
I didn’t used to care about the way I talked
And I didn’t used to care either if I looked short or not.

I grew up with no worries,
Although I did, I didn’t understand them but now I do.
Now I have these problems, that don’t seem to go away
I wish someone would just come and make them fade away.

All along I wished to have someone special
Someone who will care about me and love me for me
But it’s so hard to find that someone, because I know that if
They knew about my past, they will turn against me and they would just walk away to make sure It never lasts.

My mind feels so empty all the time
I walk in the streets, with my head up high
No one seems to notice me as I walk on by
All they see is a face with full of worries and no smiles.