Mothers Recognition Poem by Crystal Midnight

as a teen of 19 sits on her bed
trying yet again to not to believe
that her older lover wasn't drinking again
but the bruises and cuts that lay on her body
say other wise
razor blade in one hand
while praying to God to take away the loneliness
take away the emptiness
she has felt for so long
she doesn't want to end it like this
but she will if it comes down to it
tears roll down her face
but she doesn't see any reason
to keep caring on with this life of hers
nothing to live for
nothing important enough to stay in
the miserable thing we all call life
the tears are clouding her judgment
making her think that nothing matters any more
she takes another hit of the pot to take away the pain
because her bruised and broken body feels like
huge stakes are being driven into it
and someone is beating around them with a club
but on the other hand she can still feel
his fists shooting into her broken and bruised body
that makes her twinge at the thought of that same morning
tears fall onto her up turned wrist
as she places the razor blade and
starts to cut into her wrist
the door opened as a young boy about the age of 3
with dark brown hair with light brown eyes
comes in and says 'Mommy what are you doing? ‘
her eyes start to un cloud as soon as his eyes met hers
they reached into her soul and replaced a piece of her heart
at that moment something came to her
she didn't have nothing because she was looking
at everything that she would ever need to live for
that little boy should be her world
only she didn’t know it right away
because the things that she cherished the most
were the things that were too close to see