My Cheers Poem by Joshua Hillard

With this life I am going,
The pain only grows,
Yet the pain has become anger,
So it's less my emotion shows,

My words become deeper,
My actions have no thoughts,
I'm lost in a trance,
A dream that haunts,

My very fabrication,
The meaning to what is life,
Now that I am getting older,
Love now holds a price,

Family's letting go,
The days become so long,
As this rage fills my temptation,
The thought of death becomes strong,

All I do is ask myself,
Where did I go wrong?
I preach the choir daily,
But for God I have no song,

I'm finding myself speechless,
It's hard to do what I did,
Knowing once it made me happy,
And now all I do is sin,

So I'm letting the pen drop,
Let the sound fill my ears,
Soon the bullet will ring too,
And I'll finally find my cheers.