My God And My Girl Poem by Feyisayo Anjorin

MY GOD AND MY GIRL

Before I close my eyes
And wish I was dust and bones
What I was before,
Before your breath gave me form

Before I close my eyes
Wishing I never lived
Asking many questions
Battling life’s tension
Questioning love’s intention

Before I shut my eyes
Wishing I never heard your call
Wishing I never heard your words
Wishing I never grew in love
Wishing my eyes never saw,
The beauty of the earth
The heavenly art

Listen to my heart
One more time
Know the streams of things I say

If I never open my eyes
To a new dawn
If I never see the sunlight
If I never sweat again
Under the lights you shine on me

The whispers from my heart
The screaming from my soul
Will let you know
How much I loath
Another day of hoping
To comprehend your way
O beauty of the earth
O heavenly art
Maybe you feel the same
But in this flesh,
With this blood,
It feels so wrong
To feel this way

My comfort is too much to pay
Why not take your love away
No need to live another day

Before I close my eyes
Thinking of your kind of love
I hear my mind say: this is not working
Not for me.