My Life Poem by Jeanette Matthews

My life is not a fairtale and far from a happy ending fantasies
Just a day by day way of living, letting people somehow defined me
One day of acknoweledgement in April and one day of love in Febuary
Is all the attention from my family and friends that my life seems to carry
If it was something else I would know
Because behind every act favoritism show
I'm so sorry for being the vitcim I shouldn't have felt this way
But you nevered respect me so I did what I had to do walk away
You taught me that, yes you did
You taught me how to love, forget and forgive
I guess it was you that made my life the way it is
All shattered and cofused on what fake or real
If only I could say shut up talking to me
I would have avoided all of those feelings
No better yet if only I would have had a high self estemm
I wouldn't have let you sell me this hopeless self made dream