My Mental Tragedy Poem by michael billiot

My mentality
Has multiple personalities
But my tragedy
Is deciphering which is fallacy
And which is reality
It seems I can't sadly
I've lost my capability
Of escaping my cruelty
Aimed at myself
Maybe I need professional help
I giving myself welts
And my heart melts
From the pain I've felt
Yet it wasn't from anyone else
But myself casting spells
I'm trying to be my own person
But my pains worsened
And outwardly I'm cursing
When did I stop flourishing?
I don't want to be like you
But you never seem blue
Why can't I be red?
But it seems I'm misled
By my own little devil inside
Who takes my pain and multiplies
It but ten thousand
No love in my heart resounding
Wish it was
Cause I need love
To be able to breathe
Though with each breath pains increased
How can I make it cease
Oh God please
Take me away from here
I'm full of fear
Can't persevere
Wish you were near
To lend me a hand
So I can understand
How to erase
All my mistakes
And regenerate
Maybe even escape
And make my way
Through your lovely pearly gates