My Mind Has A Mind Of Its Own Poem by Ninette Gumanda

My mind has a mind of its own.
It's like a bomb waiting to go off, it swells up my brain and I wait... I wait! I wait for it to explode.
My thoughts wander into depths I'm too afraid to discover
Always thinking, thinking, thinking. Am I thinking? or Am I talking? The voices... wait!
Was that me? Relief, but it's momentary.
I can't tell the difference.
So I dig in deeper still.
Searching, searching for what?
I want answers. Answers to questions I'm too afraid to ask.
It's out of control. It's beyond me. Beyond my power.
And...She!
Stronger than me.
Braver than me.
Wiser, still.
And I... pushed back into darkness.
Prisoner of my own self.
My mind has a mind of its own.
It's like a bomb waiting to go off, it swells up my brain and I wait... I wait! I wait for it to explode.