My Number One Enemy Poem by Ash Skandarsky

Why do I get jealous?
Why do I hate?
You’re my number one target,
How bad can I get?
Your my friend yet my enemy,
I’m sorry for my felony,
But I get confused,
And I feel used.
I don’t hate you,
But when I see you with him,
I see red why?
Please don’t lie,
Do you like him?
I know he loves you, yet that does not anger me so
I’m stuck in this confusing woe,
I’m grieving, thinking
What do you have that I don’t?
Why not ask? But I wont.
I can not help but wonder,
When my mind goes a blur,
What do you do together?
Really I don’t want to know,
Because my heart can’t take the blow.
Don’t worry it’s not you,
It’s him and his eyes of sky blue.
I hate him because he never once called,
Never cared when I cried, and balled.
I almost want to die,
I have no need to lie.
Do you have someone?
You love so much that it hurts when they just walk right on by?
A someone who loves someone else as much as you love him?
I just want to apologize
For all these stupid lies.
It’s just so hard to give up.
Can you say to him?
To stare at his eyes of blue,
And say I hate you?
He has no idea how much I care,
He doesn’t even notice my pleading stares.
His heart choose you,
Casting out my eyes of gray light,
That horrible, awful night.
I try to talk to him to mend what we had,
But he’s gone and that I cannot stand!
I’m tired of these tears, and stupid fears!
But most of all I hate for think badly about you,
Who needs enemies with friends like me right?
Tia, your the light,
He looks for, to make him laugh and smile,
While with me it only lasted a short while.
This is my last note, for my heart was broke.
But you were nothing of it, just a thing to release my anger and jealousy
And for that I am very and deeply sorry.