My Past And My Present Time Poem by Nur Meiyati

I can't delete my past, as it really existed.
So far I almost never remember it, as I enjoy the present time
And a Javanese wisdom guides me: Aja ngeceh-eceh pikiran
Meaning don't waste your time thinking anything useless
But I like to share it with you so you can learn from my past
And you will know how I struggled to fight it and then gained my consciousness
And to a certain extent, I must be grateful that I had that experience
Not everyone gets that luck. LOL.
But it's true
That it gave me a lot of lesson about life
About the fact that there is a kind of love mixed with envy that could destroy me
It adds the colours of my life and the colours of me.
It even had saved my life once because I could see the similar pattern
Not open and not transparent, and manipulation of mind
So I am Nur Meiyati
Who contains me and I
And that's not too bad, isn't it?