My Search Poem by Rema Santosh

I realized it late, that I'm in a search
I searched in all those who loved me;
For they had the patience to stay with me a little longer
I found some traces in all those who hated me,
And in all those advice I recieved and in those words I shared
My home depicted some part of it
People around me said a little more
The work I enjoyed put some more light on it,
The way I wanted the world to be said much more
The way I dressed, told me something for sure
the things that hurt me, let me know about it in depth
My happiness, measured quite often,
did remind of my search
All those who entered my life had their own say,
Many I ignored, for the fear of losing what I sought for,
Still many were let to enter, for they gave me strength to go on
I know not when the search would end
for it being at different places, with different people
Though my solitude reflects a lot about it,
and I keep giving away some part of it,
I'm going on with my search,
the search for myself