Naked Before God Poem by Tracie Brown

I'm finally able to come naked before you, I finally realize there's nothing I can hide from you. For years I was trying to cover up what you could already see, what could I hide from the one who created me? For years I felt a shame to express myself to you but all these years you were whispering' I love you'. For years and years I was trying to do it on my own but there you were telling me 'I am not alone'. Father being naked before you was hard for me because of all the people who hurt, used and abused me. Being mistreated caused me to shut down and hurt, disappointment and pain held me down. Molestation and failure caused me to cover up the real me and i didn't know how to come naked before thy. I was afraid of being hurt again not knowing you were my true friend, walking around for years trying to cover up my sins. I was trying to hide all the things I had done but your only concern was for us to be one. I was afraid you would look down on me if I exposed myself to you not knowing thats exactly what you wanted me to do. I didnt know your desire for me was to be open with you so you could bring me through. Being naked before you causes everything to be exposed and now I feel like everyone knows. All of a sudden I was able to identify with Adam and Eve, covering up in shame with fig leaves. Even though I was covered naturally, spiritually every piece of clothing was gone and I had to expose to you all I've done wrong. I had to make a decision to dropp the figs and let you undo the mess I did. I had to make a decision to let you see all of me and mold me back into the person you created me to be. Exposing myself to you was the best thing I've done because I realize I am your son and your beloved one. I can freely remove the mask from my face and let your breath life in this broken place. I am no longer clothe in pride, guilt and shame but I can stand tall representing your name. You removed the clothes I used to hid and replaced it with the blood when Jesus Died. I no longer have to protect me and I can come naked before thy.