Nightmare Poem by scurlock snr

am i ever gonna wake up? this nightmare has been almost 30
years long now.this cant be what my life is how can anyone
be so unlucky or make so many screw ups? some people beleive
that your life is written and you are just living it out as
it was wrote if thats the case id love to meet the guy who is
responsable for writing my life and shake his neck.he has a
sense of humour ill give him that much. i feel like
ive just fallen in to a pit constantly falling in to a never
ending darkness that never seems to stop when it stops i have
to wonder will i wake up in a place where if i make a mistake
or screw up i get that rarety of a second chance that others
seem to get when mistakes are made am i gonna waken up by the
gates of heaven to be welcomed to a place where no suffering
or punishment for being human is handed out or do i wake by
the gates of hell where the only difference between my life
and hell is the knashing of teeth and the weeping of others
as well as myself.hopefully i waken from this nightmare soon.