Numb Poem by Natalie Rosario

Seeing though gray eyes
The strange feeling of nonexistence
Unimportance
Emptiness
Numbness
Losing yourself to the hungry pains that hide inside
I don't know why
But I feel better like this
Then giving myself to others
And becoming one of them
Its fear
Which keeps me up at night
Which makes me cry in silence
Its pointless to fight
This has just become an automatic reaction
Like breathing
I feel as if I need this numbness
To hide my true feeling
Worst is when you don't understand those feelings
Its better to be numb
Completely numb
the only thing keeping me alive
is that little hope inside
that I try to hide
cause it causes me pain
to believe in faith
I don't know why
But its better to not put yourself in that situation where you hurt yourself
Because of high hopes
My enemy which i've learn to hide
Because all you get in return is pains and cries