Oh My, Oh Mother Poem by tiffany fawcett

Oh my, oh mother
Oh my, oh mother
Where would you be?
Without the love
Given away freely

Oh my, oh mother
What went wrong?
That you had to resort
To the uglies of life

Oh my, oh mother
Did you think about me?
When you snorted up the numbness
That set you free

Oh my, oh mother
Why did you break?
Was it me?
Was I too much?

Oh my, oh mother
I thought you bought it
The smile plastered to my face the whole time
When all the things were chaos

Oh my, oh mother
I am so sorry
For I deceived you
And let you believe


That I believed you
When you said you would stop
And when everything would be okay
For I knew it wouldn't

I knew it would never be fine
Cause he would always hand you the pipe
And you would always fall deeper
And later the one you trusted

The one who handed you the numbness you craved
Would raise his hand to strike you again
You would fall to the ground defenseless
And I would hide in the closet screaming

I should have come out
I should have protected you
I should have loved you
I should have been the one

The one on the ground defenseless
The one with the red nose and sniffles
The one broken and abused
The one sad and alone

I am so sorry
For I have let you down
I have not let go
For I am the monster with the hand hand in the air about to strike.