Oh! The Pain Poem by K J

Will no one help me! ?
I don't think so!
They want me to suffer then die.
I'm as strong as I can be.
They can't beat me,
But they have.
They broke me.
They don't love or care or need me.
I don't care anymore.
I'm past committing suicide.
That would only admit defeat.
I can't do it anymore!
Will someone please......
Please help me!
My mind is gone,
My soul is lost,
My innocense torn.
I've been violated.
Not in body,
But in spirt.
Do you think if I survive a day at a time,
I will live?
No!
I'm dead.
You just don't know it.
You can't tell.
You don't know or love me.
You can't judge me.
If only you could understand me,
But you never will.
I won't open up.
I won't crumble under your push and shove.
If you try,
I will rebel.
If you push,
I will push back.
You don't understand me.
You can't.
You don't feel my pain.
I don't show it,
But its there.
Under the surface.
In the dark.
Waiting for a chance to be released.
In anger,
In furry,
In helplessness,
In nothing.
If you try to fit in,
I will completely shut down,
Without cause or thought.
If I loved or cared for someone,
Maybe they could get through.
Just maybe.....
If...is a large word to say for me.
If...
If...
If someone I respect might get threw.
If...
If I release all the anger,
And pain,
And hate,
And fear,
Maybe I and you could understand.....