On The Verge Of Tears Poem by Rabi Anata

Dear Lord help me
It seems there is nothing right here
Not in this picture
Because once again I see myself
Sitting alone on the verge of tears
I'm clueless to what it is that I have done wrong
But there is always this negative effect
I leave on everyone
Am I just some kind of other human
That will never fit in
Do I get too offended by everything
Lord tell me what bothers everyone about me
Is it my style or my personality
I ask and I ask and I ask and I ASK
But this question comes back like a messenger bird
That always returns empty
I really don't want to yell and ruin the night
Especially when everyone's day is going so right
And I don't want to openly cry tears of pain
Because someone will see them and not understand
And I know what they will do next
Once I put down my defense
They will talk about me as if I were crazy
But I know the truth about me
And I know you see my heart God
I need you to heal me and make it alright
Make it so that I don't cry
Make me confident and not shy
PLEASE I am crying out to you
The quietest way I know how
So as not to make this heard
I need some comfort at this time
And some reassurance that I'll be fine