Once Innocent Child Poem by Crystal Williams

How did an innocent child
Over the years become so wild
She used to feel like she was worth it
Like the life she had she deserved it
Pretty, cute, and sweet is how she appeared
But soon something would happen to help smear her tears
Someone came along and hurt her heart
Invading her privacy and tore her self-esteem apart
At six years old she went through more than most
All she had left was faith and little hope
This secret she kept for a very long time
She hid it behind smiles while deep inside she cried
She built up so much anger because she felt un-pure
Because the innocence of a child was stolen away from her
The way she remembered his hurtful words
Made her feel like she had sold herself short
She carried so much shame for what he did
She just wished that she would die so she wouldn't have to live
The guilt from not telling someone would soon lead to pain
Didn’t know how to deal with the stress that evolved and maintained
The depression hit her hard just like a brick in the face
She felt her life was so sick to the point of such disgrace
She tried to let it go she tried to hold it down
Someone else came trying to tell her she was lower than the ground
She felt like she was worthless, hell, nothing at all
She couldn’t believe her life had became so hard
She had to suppress her secrets and also deal with her mom
She felt like she was meaningless up above it all
She kept telling herself she wasn't good enough
She felt she wasn't even good enough for a mother's love
But she got so sick of all the crying got sick of not loving herself
She got so tired she got on her knees reached out for God's help
She knew she couldn't get through it all by herself
She desperately needed God's oh so powerful help
Her struggles aren't quite through yet
But she's doing better than she started out with