One Big Lie Poem by Tess Connor

I say I’m not scared of death, or afraid to die
But maybe I am and this is one big lie
If I weren’t scared, I wouldn’t be writing these things
I’d be out there with my razor doing myself in
The truth is I’m sh*t scared of the hurdles in life
I don’t know how to tackle them or if I’m doing it right
I don’t wanna fail in anyone else’s terms
So I threaten myself... I just wish I would learn
To accept the help which is thrown to my feet
But I’m such a stubborn b*tch who can’t admit defeat
If I really did have the guts to bleed all my blood
I’d happily give in, to hit the floor with a thud