Only Human Poem by JAMES T. ADAIR

Being human
having feelings
and many things inside
that I wish could be treasured
and shared
well really what I mean
is I wish there was 'care'
because there rarely ever is

My heart feels pulled
every which way
and all it ever really wanted
was just a home
a place that would not ever
turn me away
a sanctuary away from sadness
where a heart could wander
without wandering astray

I've been pegged as sad
and though I've got reason to be
it was not the spirit inside of me
its just that I put too much hope in things
and letting hopes fly high
I could never understand or accept
why?
It always made me cry

My own simple visions of things
were so much brighter
my spirit and soul
always hopeful and brighter
like a circus or a fairytale
with happy endings
and pirate ships asail
buried treasures and knights
with suits of mail

And while all these childhood dreams
faded away
there was one last drream that did stay
but I was always afraid to say
and kept this dream away
telling myself
Someday
while much else slipped away

We make mistakes in life
and it hurts to admit
we justify them bit by bit
and if something doesn't seem to fit
we hide it away

© James T. Adair