Only Replacements Poem by Elizabeth Jordan Heinbuch

I've replaced all of my words with my drawings
Since all of those short severed scrawlings
Of seemingly senselessness
And even deeper depress
can't seem to express
myself-anymore.
Something about the geometry
I favor over the reality
of sentences and sobriety.
Only the abstract can express
these emotions i possess
since it is easy to understand
B/c there is nothing to understand
(And that's how I am)
I've replaced all empathy
for all apathy
and it's so hard to care;
all ambition for ambivalence
(and are you even there?)
I've replaced all of my feeling with thoughts
since a cripled conscience
leads to logical callousness.
But something is to be desired
in this emotional numbness
A vacancy
which bothers not to fill
and perhaps it never will.
Soon i shall replace
breathing with smoking
eating instead of sleeping
and perhaps some excessive drinking
Just to cope...