Open My Eyes But Let Me Refuse Poem by Andrus Cassian

I can't believe it, I finally see it
The myth is real
I believe it, feel it
...No wait, it's all an illusion
Who do I call
to capture my imagination
cause I've been fooled by the illusion in my mind
Do I own a contusion
or am I still dressed in confusion
by the crushes who force feed me their personalized drug
which toys and picks at my brain piece by piece
laughing at me while they perform brainwash surgery
Everytime I take a simple look in their eyes
to find what lies inside
it feels like Medusa hit me twice
a stone stare petrified on my face
while my heart just sits in it's recliner
watching old movies, bringing back fond smiles and bright eyes
souvenirs and trinkets
I try to breathe back in but I'm frozen again
Medusa hit me twice
with a stare of petrified ice
halting my decision to open my eyes, refuse
If I open my eyes to let me forsee
failure pouring from leaks
Please grant me the power of invisibility
or just send me digging into a tree
so I can fall upon a branch
and watch the sky form a lie in its clouds
for me